Some days, I have so much noise in my head. Hopes, worries, dreams, desires, fears, unsolved problems.
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When I meditate on these days, I often see disappointment too. There is a part of me that’s disappointed because I want meditation to be calm, peaceful and easy. I want it to feel good.
Some days meditation does feel good. It’s a pleasure to watch my breath and be calm, present on these days.
Other days, meditation is like watching a storm. My mental storm.
There is a tendency to turn away from unpleasant things like agitation. “Hey, this is difficult! Maybe I should eat or watch a movie instead.”
Turning away from the storm is a missed opportunity.
There is a lot to be learned from my internal storm.
For one thing, it’s helpful to know that today is a stormy day inside. This is valuable information. I might not even notice I’m stormy unless I sit and watch.
Often times, I’m not aware of what’s lurking beneath the surface of my thoughts. Something might be bothering me from the distant past or a hypothetical future.
My internal storms, emotional and mental, are here to teach me.
There is beauty within the chaos.
On stormy days, I can learn by sitting still and watching the storm. No need to try to fix the storm, dissect it or do anything besides be aware of it.
All storms pass.
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